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 It's lovely out today, so I started this morning with a bit of light gardening.... or maybe garden repair? I love gardens and gardening, except I hate the work needed to put in even the most basic maintenance. I'm hoping that if the weather stays decent, I can solve some of this issue by doing little bits, here and there, every morning.

After that, I worked on Unjust Cause, the sequel to Precinct 13.  

For those following along at home, I recently realized that thanks to all the mucking about I did on Wattpad back in the day, I have most of a complete novel--at least in terms of a story arc.  There has been, periodically, some talk from me about 'finishing it up and making it into an e-book,' but I was never able to muster the wherewithal to actually DO any of that. Finally, it occurred to me that one way to force the issue was to see if Cheryl Morgan of Wizard Tower Press (the folks that brought you the e-editions of my Archangel Protocol books), would be interested in publishing Unjust Cause. Wizard Tower Press is a royalty sharing publisher, so that's no advance for me, but also no risk for them. Much, much more importantly, Wizard Tower Press will do all of the e-formatting, printing, etc., (something I, just frankly, dread) AND will provide me a hard deadline--the thing I need probably more than anything.  We are currently hammering out the last of the details, but a contract should be signed by me in the next couple of weeks. 

The previous manuscript, the one I was writing just to keep writing, is a gigantic mess.

If you've read everything that I posted on Wattpad all those years ago, I think that when the time comes you will find the Wizard Tower Press version to be a completely different experience. I'm writing it now to function both as a standalone and a proper sequel, which is to say, commercially viable. I'm trying to make it read like an actual book, not the meandering stream of consciousness that I had been doing. I mean, not to dis what i was doing on Wattpad, but I was really just trying to keep writing something original... and it kind of shows? There's lots of good stuff here, though, so much of it will work its way back into the novel, just maybe more...succinctly?

This is involving a lot of writing from scratch, which is why i insisted on a November 1 deadline. 

In other work related news, I have been contracted for another manuscript critique from the Loft, so I have find time in my schedule to work on that. (I'm thinking evenings?) 


Blah, blah, blah... work, work, work.

I will catch you all up on my weekend at some other point. Mother's Day was nice enough, though Shawn got her big dinner out on Friday night--we went to Taste of India, her favorite. I have decided that from now on, any celebration for me, will involve dim sum. The other big thing I did over the weekend was read a LOT of manga, thanks to a trip to the library. I may have to head out to see if they have the rest of the volumes of Pluto, which is one based on the world of Astro Boy, which I did not expect to like as much as I did. 

Right, okay. Nose back to the grindstone.
lydamorehouse: (nic & coffee)
 I feel like I've forgotten how to write. 

Which is weird, since I wrote about 2,000+ words of fan fiction yesterday.  So, it's not the actual act of putting words to page that I've forgotten how to do, but something else.  I've got a deadline fast approaching for an author guest slot in an invite-only magazine called Boundary Shock Quarterly, my issue will be about apocalypses that I was invited to contribute to, and I've been doing a LOT of thinking about stories that feature after the fall/the end of the world and what appeals to me about them.  Shawn and I even re-watched "Logan's Run," which surprised me by mostly standing the test of time. But, Mason challenged me to put some words to paper today and I have started numerous times only to be frustrated with the results.

I've gotten some good advice about how-to write short stories from the people in my writers' group, so I'm not necessarily looking for that right now. But, you know, if you really want to point me to writing blogs or whatnot, I'll definitely read anything you link to. I'm not so proud that I'd turn away a good resource.

What I'm really stymied about right now is something different, however. I was counseled to consider writing a story within a story, where there's something else going on and the end of the world is kind of more of a backdrop. Something like what [personal profile] naomikritzer did with "So Much Cooking."  (An amazing story, if you haven't already read it, you should.) This is excellent advice because a good short story is always operating on a number of different levels, but... okay, here's the thing that's really been hitting me _today_ as I sit down to write. I'm not sure that's me, the writer who writes brilliantly about the human condition clothed in science fiction. Think it's absolutely what most people are writing write now--most successful short story writers, anyway, given what I've been reading in prep for the Nebula Award nominations. I am a gigantic fan of slice-of-life manga, butI was re-reading some of the stuff I wrote to promote the launch of Resurrection Code, which very much is my "after the fall" novel, and it's all apocalypse travelogue with action.

And I'm wondering if I'm doing a disservice to myself by not just writing an adventure?

Eh, I should just write SOMETHING and stop overthinking the whole process.

Mason's right about me. I can talk myself OUT of any idea I have... and end up with nothing.

Well, I'm picking him up at 5:15 pm tonight (unless robotics gets cancelled due to the snow), so I have time to get something down. Probably I should just start writing ANYTHING and see where that takes me.

Or... I could do the dishes... or vacuum.

See, I'm a writer. I know how to avoid writing!

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UPDATE: 325 words written. Ha! It's not a lot, but I'm exceedingly happy that words made it onto page. Go me!
lydamorehouse: (Renji 3/4ths profile)
 I've determined today to get a decent start (well, re-start after talking to Wyrdsmiths,) on my proposal for a mystery cozy that my agent was looking for. I'm a four pages in and all I want to do is... anything else.  

In fact, I just got back from running an errand and am eyeing up the dishes. I hate doing the dishes.  The only thing that makes doing the dishes bearable to me is the fact that I usually watch anime while doing it.

I even started the laundry, another job I loathe.

All to avoid writing.

I'm SUCH a stereotype.

I'm pretty sure I mentioned the cozy here before.  There's no real "interest." All that happened is that my agent was talking to an editor (as per her job) and the editor said something to the effect of, "You know what *I'd* love to see....? I'd love to see a cozy mystery set in the craft beer brewing community" and my agent, being an actual decent person who seems to legitimately have my back, passed on this bit of industry gossip. I'm probably the absolute worst person to try to write this. For one, I don't drink beer. AT. ALL.  I grew up in a brewing town and the smell of hops kind of makes me think, unpleasantly, of overly hot, swampy days. So I never bothered to acquire a taste for it.  I've done some home brewing of wines, but never (obviously, since I don't drink it) beer.

HOWEVER, the universe seems to want me to give this a try, because, by absolute chance I met a woman at Minicon who not only is a craft beer enthusiast, but ran her own craft beer brewery.  So, I contacted Kathleen on Facebook and she's agreed to be my expert advisor.  In fact, we got together a couple of weekends ago and talked about the local craft brewing scene. I learned a lot of interesting stuff and immediately got an idea of how the murder could happen.

So, I've been diligently poking at this proposal for several weeks now. I really want to get it done so that I can start on the part that's going to be the most difficult for me: writing the sample chapters.  I should probably just start writing those, too, but [insert typical writerly whine, aka "WRITING IS HARD!"].

Who thought this was a good career for me, anyway?  Oh, wait. I did.
lydamorehouse: (ichigo being adorbs)
Last year, my friend and fellow writer, Sean M. Murphy decided he needed to stop calling himself a writer.  This morning, I woke up and discovered that another dear friend and colleague is considering doing the same.

This is heartbreaking to me.  

I want to blame something for this, but there are, frankly, too many options.

It seems to me that it's far harder to break-in to pro markets (magazine and novel) than it was when I first started writing. A lot of people are jumping straight to self-publishing these days, and, while that seems to work well for many, it's no more a guaranteed road to success than any other.  Personally, I find trying to motivate myself to write for self-publication much, much harder because of all of the extra work you have to take on yourself in order to get a finalized product out there.  This why the first of my self-published books is going to be the collaboration I'm doing with Rachel. (She just went over our proofs, because I have to head off to work in about fifteen minutes!  Thank gods for a co-writer!!)

But most of us struggle alone.  Even Sean, who was part of a writers' group, was ultimately alone with his own sense of 'being a writer' and all the myriad ways a person can fail at that.

That's the other thing I really want to blame.  Because, I think everyone realizes how hard it is to break it (and how hard it to survive once you do,) but I think we all underestimate how easy it is to undermine ourselves. Ultimately, I think Sean hit the nail on the head when he said 'writers' write' and that that should be the defining quality, but that's still a trap.  Because how OFTEN does a writer need to write in order to call themselves a writer?  Every day?  Every week?  Once a month?  Once a year?

My answer is that I think we ought to expand this definition a little, give ourselves a tiny break.  A writer is a writer if they have written, if they want to write, and if they write, but not necessarily all those things all the time, every day.  Some days, the best we can manage is that we wanted to write.  Sometimes, especially after some hard writing-related news (the publisher doesn't want to renew your contract, say,) it's enough to say, "I have written" while you take time to recuperate.

Of course, it's maybe easy for me to say.  I have books on the shelf with my name on them. 

But, damn it, my friends, I don't want to lose any more of you.  Cut yourselves a break.  You are a writer because you WILL write.  You're a writer because you HAVE written.  You're a writer because you WANT to write.  Courage is measured in that voice that says quietly, "I will try again tomorrow."

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