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 I've been seeing stray comments on Bluesky saying that we shouldn't call Trump, his cronies or MAGA red-pillers "morons."

There's good intention in those sentiments, but let me tell you a story...

When I was in my thirties I worked at a place called the Immigration History Research Center. It is part of the University of Minnesota and therefore the job came with fantastic benefits. My boss, however, was unhappy because I was writing a novel on the job. (Fair.) But, she couldn't make that case very easily because I am sly like a fox.

I had long told her that I suspected that the reason I made some number transpositions and misspellings was because I was dyslexic. I tried to do my best to correct things, but I thought it was likely a learning disability. But, I had never officially been diagnosed. She basically put her money down on the bet that I couldn't prove it. So, fully covered by my job, I was tested to see if I was dyslexic. Apparently, when you are an adult, one of the ways they double-check their work is to give you an IQ test. Because, truthfully? You could just be dumb.

The person administering my IQ test gave it to me out loud (because my dyslexia might skew the results). This led to some funny moments, like when I corrected his proununcation of Louis Armstrong's name and, at one point, had to ask for clarification if he really meant to say "masticate" in the context of graduation, as I was pretty sure that word was "metriculate." 

Let's just say it seems pretty clear I'm passing at this point. 

But what actually I remember the most about the IQ test is that there were a couple of free form questions at the end. (I really loved the storyboarding with the images, too. But, anyway, staying on point.) One of these free-form essay answer questions feels relevant more and more with each passing day.

The first was: Why do we wash our clothes? Without hestitation I said, "So they don't rot off???" and then, of course, explained, you know, that unwashed clothes are dirty and smell and will, eventually, rot. So you need to wash them not only with water, but also with soap. Bacteria is a real thing that exists.

Then came the kicker: Why do we pay our taxes?

I knew the answer then just as I do now. We pay taxes in exchange for government services. I pay taxes so I can have lovely federal highways. I pay taxes because I love the things that federal grants get my city, my state, and the country. I want my veterans to have mental and medical assistance and I fucking LOVE the United States Post Service (which actually needs no federal money because it has historically operated in the black, but you GET MY POINT.)  I give in order to get really, really useful things--not just for me, but for all of us.

The thing is that struck me then (and which I often return to) is that think about this. UNDERSTANDING what TAXES ARE FOR is an ACTUAL measurement of IQ. Like for real. It was ON THE TEST.

We can argue (and we should) that IQ tests are racist and not actually a great measure of intelligence, but they can tell us whether or not someone has absorbed the basic understanding of how the world works--including belief in invisible things, like bacteria. And, people who fail those tests, historically, were called "morons." It's not a nice word. We should drop it from all polite discourse. However, these people who are dismantling our governement system have not only faitled a basic IQ question, but who also are, frankly, not nice people. I feel like this insult does, in fact, fit the situation very specifically. 

It's literally ON THE TEST.

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P.S. Bonus ending to the story. My boss could not fire me. The diagonsis came back with a notation that said, in accordence with that ADA (Americans with Disablities Act) Lyda needs to be accomodated as part of her job. I mean, I quit shortly after? But... I still felt very righterously indignant.
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Since I'm teaching again, I'm writing about the process of writing again.

Because my Tate Hallaway blog has been dead for some time, I directed my students to check-in over there to see what I have to say about various things. Basically, I promised them a slightly more coherent version of my lectures since I've long ago come to realize that my lecture style is best described as "organic," which can drive some folks fairly insane. I have this tendency to INTEND to talk about A, B, and C, yet actually talk about A, Z, B, Q, F, and C. I promised to remove Z, Q, and F when I write up my "notes" for them. I can't entirely say I'm 100% more successful, but forcing myself to write it down does often help keep me on track.

At any rate, if you'd like to follow along, I've got two writing-related blogs up right now:

"From Idea to Story"

"Emotion as Story"

In other news, I woke up to the sound of my child barfing. Mason's stomach is giving him trouble... maybe from the very rich Indian food we had last night. Because I'm teaching, we weren't able to go out to dinner on Shawn actual birthday night (Wednesday) so we went out last night. Our favorite place lately has been "Taste of India" in Maplewood. Mason decided to be brave and tried something new. Unfortunately, it doesn't seem to have agreed with him.

Poor Mason.

The only comfort to all this is that it's cold and gray outside at the moment and if there was any GOOD day to have to spend snuggled up in bed reading and recovering, this would be it. We have a couple of errands we need to do--our taxes have been done for some time and are awaiting our signatures, so I need to go collect those soon since April 15 is looming. And I had wanted to get fish for the big tank, finally. I have successfully kept our betta alive for months now, so I'm feeling confident enough to consider trying again in the tank of doom. I've been changing the water in the unoccupied tank as though there were living fish in it (so approx. once a week), so I'm figuring that whatever evil might have been lurking in there should be well and truly diluted by now. Fingers crossed, at any rate. Plus, I was thinking of NOT getting our fish from PetCo, but a decent fishery like World of Fish.

But, that certainly doesn't _have_ to be done today. Taxes is the only necessity, like so often said.

Plus, Mason can feel good about taking advantage of his spring break. We've already done a very awesome hike through Minnehaha falls.

Mason will Read anywhere
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What better day to schedule an appointment with the Tax Guy, than a Monday, eh? Yeah, well, it shouldn't be too painful. I made some money writing this year thanks to Audible.com and trickling royalties, but I was also having the government pre-take-out taxes on all the work I did for the Library. Between that and the money Shawn paid quarterly, I suspect we overpaid and will be getting a refund, as usual.

The only reason we go to a Tax Guy (this should be a title, like Captain, so I am capitalizing it A. A. Milne style) is because I don't want the headache of figuring out all the things. We have a child, we have a house, I have, like, at least three jobs (if you include my teaching) so it just makes sense to pay a little money to avoid tears and possible arguments. I think of the money we pay Tax Guy as money that we DIDN'T have to spend on couples' therapy.

The other trauma in my life is that our blinker on our car has become utterly RANDOM. It's not just blinking fast or suddenly quitting in the way that would make me think "Ah, I must replace a fuse" but RANDOM. Like, works some times/doesn't work at all/blinks twice and then quits. As Mason points out that makes our car one giant moving violation, so I'll be taking it into our friend Dave's Auto in Roseville tomorrow morning. Honestly, I suspect they'll find a whole bundle of wires that have been damaged by water or squirrels or something because I also have a very RANDOM (which I think should just be all-caps because it's deeply frustrating and random seems like a thing one should respect by shouting) engine light that pops on and off, as well as other dashboard Gremlins.

Otherwise, life continues apace. Shawn is fully recovered. She says she still gets weird twinges just after eating, as though the phantom gallbladder is trying to do its thing, but otherwise she's as good as new. I'm especially happy to report that she's taken back over laundry duty which is a huge relief to me personally.

Mason and I also recorded our MangaKast podcast: The Ywach Puppet Show

Having given up 200+ pages into THREE BODY PROBLEM, I'm currently reading a book that's up for a Lambda called AFTERPARTY which I absolutely adore.... except for one weird problem. The main character's name is... Lyda. For real, Lyda. Lyda Rose, no less. And, I know that most people have to deal with this all the time, but I NEVER come across a book with my name in it. NEVER. Add on top of this that the Lyda of AFTERPARTY is also a lesbian and is hallucinating angels. It's like someone wrote an alternate universe, real-person fic about me.

Honestly, in my head, I've just been switching to Lydia. That makes it all better.

I will say that I ended up having to reach out to the author, Daryl Gregory to tell him just how eerie it was to be reading about a Lyda who has so many similarities to myself and I got a Tweet back from him:

tweet from Daryl Gregory

Which was just perfect. I am now rooting for him to win the Lammy (sorry Alyx!)
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This week has been very social. I hung out with a friend on Monday and read her astrology chart for her birthday. Yesterday, I did another spontaneous hangout with another friend where we talked about Bleach and I attempted to play the role of wiser, older lesbian (ha! Though I have the older part down pretty well.) Today is my writing day, so I'll do more hanging out... though hopefully some writing too. Shawn, no surprise, is wondering what the heck I'm doing with myself now that I don't have a book contract. At least yesterday I managed to send a couple of proposals (including SAMURAI HIGH!) off to my agent. Tomorrow I will tackle all the household jobs that I've been ignoring all week (while also volunteering for Mason's school.)

Today, in about ten minutes or so, I'm off to the tax accountant's office again, to deliver Shawn's signature and had over some late arriving forms and whatnot. Also, I'm going to see if I can have someone help me puzzle out some German tax forms I need to fill out so I can keep getting money from other countries.

Speaking of which, my editor informed me that we have made a French language deal for the ALMOST books. So, I say, "Vive la France!" The weird thing, though, is that when the publisher makes these deals (which they do almost exclusively these days) I don't actually see the money. They just give me "credit" against my advance. But, given that thanks to a Russian and Chinese deal ALMOST TO DIE FOR already earned out, I may actually get some $$ from that book eventually.

Well, I should probably head out. I'm sure the traffic to St. Louis Park is going to suck.
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Which kind of sounds rude... anyway, both of me have done a lot of bloggin' today. You can read about the kinds of writing-related dreams I have over at SF Novelists. If you're interested in how Tate choses which supernatural creature to write about in her urban fantasy you can check out her blog over at Fangs, Fur & Fey.

Meanwhile, the tax meeting was much, much more painful than expected. To put it mildly, we're fairly screwed. Paying my taxes this year will, in point of fact, wipe out our entire savings. Luckily, we had some. We also had EXACTLY the amount we need to pay the Feds and State. And, as another positive, we're currently debt free right now -- yes, kids, that means don't owe nobody nothing. We have no car payments, no credit card debt, no student loans, no overdraft protection owed -- nada, only our mortgage.

We're just back to square one with savings, which means that we can't afford to remodel/fix our downstairs bathroom this year or hire anyone to paint the exterior of our house. I'm also going to be strapped in terms of promotional stuff for my books and travel. But, you know, as I keep reminding Shawn, if things continue as they have in terms of Tate's royalities, money is still flowing in our direction. It's just as unpredictable as before, and this time we're planning to pre-pay a little better so we can get money BACK at the end of the year.

Before you tell me to fire my tax guy, it wasn't his fault. We *were* paying estimated taxes, but we should have been updating our tax guy quarterly when things started to change. We'd still be out this money, we just would have not had it before instead of now. (Uh, if that makes any sense.) Believe me, without our tax guy, we'd be a lot more screwed.

And please keep in mind, we're nowhere near being destitute, we just have to go back to tightening our proverbial belts and that, well, is getting tiring at 40. I always forget that the government wants SO much money in terms of social security and all those other withholdings that other people get taken out of their checks automatically.

In other sad news, Johnny/Giant Girl is finally sucumming to whatever it is (cancer?) that has caused those weird tumors. Until Friday, he'd been completely oblivious to the fact that he was starting to look like Frankenfish, but over the weekend he stopped eating. A bad sign in any animal. Frankly, I think I'm WAY more depressed about the immenent demise of Johnny/Giant Girl than I am about my stupid taxes. Johnny/Giant Girl is such a gentle fish. I've been doing the only thing I really can for him, which is change his water a lot, and every time I do, he comes and swims up to check me out. Lately, since he's been so weak, he'll stop and rest in the curl of my fingers (as I'm cupping the siphon). He just hangs out there cradled in my fingers, like he's getting a little fish hug.

*sigh*

I'm probably going to cry like a dog when he goes, even though part of my mind is already trying to decide what else I could put in that tank. Shawn has suggested another betta, but I'm not sure. Johnny was special. I'm not sure I can replace him. Other bettas are so agressive, you know? Johnny was a weird little betta -- kind of shy and curious. He sucked at making a bubble nest, but he was very determined to try. I've always suspected that he was actually a she. Apparently, betta females will sometimes trans-gender, and grow fins like their male counterparts to pass as males. (Interestingly, now that South Africa has her own tank, I've noticed her trying to make a bubble nest too.) Anyway, I've always thought of Johnny/Giant Girl as my trans fish, especially after the completley unsuccessful attempts to breed. The likelihood of finding another betta like Johnny/Giant Girl seems pretty slim.

*double sigh*

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